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About the Book
"A Stone For A Pillow" is a spiritual memoir by Madeleine L'Engle that explores her journey through faith, doubt, and personal growth. L'Engle reflects on her experiences with God and the challenges she faced in life, offering insights on prayer, love, and finding purpose in the midst of uncertainty. This book offers a candid and intimate look at L'Engle's spiritual beliefs and the ways in which her faith shaped her identity and relationships.
Gregory Thaumaturgus
Gregory the Wonderworkerâs Early life
Gregory was born in a Pontus, a region on the southern coast of the Black Sea, located in the modern-day eastern Black Sea Region of Turkey, around 212-13. His was a wealthy home and his parents named him Theodore (Gift of God) despite their pagan beliefs. When he was 14 years old his father died and soon after, he and his brother, Athenodorus, were anxious to study law at Beirut, Lebanon, then one of the four of five famous schools in the Hellenic world.
Influence of Origen
However, on the way, they first had to escort their sister to rejoin her husband, who was a government official assigned to Caesarea in Palestine (modern Haifa, Israel). When they arrived they learned that the celebrated scholar Origen, head of the catechetical school of Alexandria, lived there.
Inquisitiveness led them to hear and speak with the Origen and his irresistible charm quickly won their hearts. They soon dropped their desires for a life in Roman law, became Christian believers and pupils of Origen, learning philosophy and theology, for somewhere between five and eight years. Origen also baptised Gregory.
Pastor (then Bishop) of Neoceasarea
Gregory returned to his native Pontus with the intention of practicing oratory, but also to write a book proving the truth of Christianity, revealing his evangelistic heart. But his plans were disrupted when locals noticed his passion for Christ and his spiritual maturity. There were just seventeen Christians in Neoceasarea when Gregory arrived and this small group persuaded him to lead them as their bishop. (âbishopâ simply meant a local overseer). At the time, Neocaesarea was a wicked, idolatrous province.
Signs of the Spirit
By his saintly life, his direct and lively preaching, helping the needy and settling quarrels and complaints, Gregory began to see many converts to Christ. But it was the signs and wonders that particularly attracted people to Christ.
En route to Neocaesarea from Amasea, Gregory expelled demons from a pagan temple, its priest converted to Christ immediately.
Once, when he was conversing with philosophers and teachers in the city square, a notorious harlot came up to him and demanded payment for the sin he had supposedly committed with her. At first Gregory gently remonstrated with her, saying that she perhaps mistook him for someone else.
But the loose woman would not be silenced. He then asked a friend to give her the money. Just as the woman took the unjust payment, she immediately fell to the ground in a demonic fit, and the fraud became evident. Gregory prayed over her, and the devil left her. This was the beginning of Gregoryâs miracles. It was at this time he became known as âGregory Thaumaturgus,â âGregory the Miracle Workerâ (or Wonderworker).
At one point Gregory wanted to flee from the worldly affairs into which influential townsmen persistently sought to push him. He went into the desert, where by fasting and prayer he developed an intimacy with God and received gifts of knowledge, wisdom and prophecy. He loved life in the wilderness and wanted to remain in solitude with God until the end of his days, but the Lord willed otherwise.
His theological contribution
Though he was primarily an evangelist and pastor, Gregory also had a deep theological understanding.
His principal work âThe Exposition of Faithâ, was a theological apology for Trinitarian belief. It incorporated his doctrinal instructions to new believers, expressed his arguments against heretical groups and was widely influential amongst leaders in the Patristic period: Basil the Great, Gregory the Theologian, and Gregory of Nyssa (The Cappadocian Fathers). It was the forerunner of the Nicene Creed that was to appear in the early 4th century.
In summary
He gave himself to the task of the complete conversion of the population of his diocese. The transformation in Neocaesarea was astonishing. Persuasive preaching, numerous healings and miraculous signs had a powerful effect. Such was his success that it was said that when Gregory became bishop (c 240) he found only seventeen Christians in his diocese; when he died only seventeen remained pagan (Latourette 1953:76).
Basil the Greatâs Testimony
Basil the Great (330-379, Bishop of Caesarea, in his work âOn the Spiritâ wrote the following account of Gregory the wonder-worker.
âBut where shall I rank the great Gregory, and the words uttered by him? Shall we not place among Apostles and Prophets a man who walked by the same Spirit as they; who never through all his days diverged from the footprints of the saints; who maintained, as long as he lived, the exact principles of evangelical citizenship?
I am sure that we shall do the truth a wrong if we refuse to number that soul with the people of God, shining as it did like a beacon in the Church of God: for by the fellow-working of the Spirit the power which he had over demons was tremendous, and so gifted was he with the grace of the word âfor obedience to the faith among. . .the nations.â that, although only seventeen Christians were handed over to him, he brought the whole people alike in town and country through knowledge to God.
He too by Christâs mighty name commanded even rivers to change their course, and caused a lake, which afforded a ground of quarrel to some covetous brethren, to dry up. Moreover, his predictions of things to come were such as in no wise to fall short of those of the great prophets. To recount all his wonderful works in detail would be too long a task. By the superabundance of gifts, wrought in him by the Spirit, in all power and in signs and in marvels, he was styled a second Moses by the very enemies of the Church.
Thus, in all that he through grace accomplished, alike by word and deed, a light seemed ever to be shining, token of the heavenly power from the unseen which followed him. To this day he is a great object of admiration to the people of his own neighborhood, and his memory, established in the churches ever fresh and green, is not dulled by length of time. (Schaff and Wace nd., Series 2. 8:46-47).
âGregory was a great and conspicuous lamp, illuminating the church of God.â âBasil the Great.
Our God Listens
You have been invited to speak to the God of the universe, the Almighty. Not just the mightiest, but the all-mighty. All power is his, and under his control. And he is the one who made you, and keeps you in existence. This God, the one God â almighty, creator, rescuer â speaks to us to reveal himself, that we might genuinely know him, but he doesnât only speak. In one of the great wonders in all the world and history, this God listens. First he speaks, and bids us respond. Then he pauses. He stoops. He bends his ear toward his people. And he hears us in this marvel we so often take for granted, and so flippantly call prayer. What Comes Before Prayer The wonder of prayer might lead us to rush past a critical reality before we start âdialing upâ the God of heaven. There is an order to his speaking and listening, and to ours. He is God; we are not. Mark it well every day, and forever. He speaks first, then listens. We first listen, then speak. âHe is God; we are not. Mark it well every day, and forever. He speaks first, then listens. We first listen, then speak.â Prayer is not a conversation we start. Rather, God takes the initiative. First, he has spoken. He has revealed himself to us in his world, and in his word, and in the Word. And through his word, illumined by his Spirit, he continues to speak. âSee that you do not refuse him who is speakingâ (Hebrews 12:25). His word is not dead and gone but âliving and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heartâ (Hebrews 4:12). And in his word, and by his Word, he extends to us this stunning offer: to have his ear. Golden Scepter When Esther learned of Hamanâs plot to destroy the Jews, a great barrier stood before her. Mordecai directed her âto go to the king to beg his favor and plead with him on behalf of her peopleâ (Esther 4:8). Easier said than done. Esther knew these were life-and-death stakes, not just for the Jews but for her: âIf any man or woman goes to the king inside the inner court without being called, there is but one law â to be put to death, except the one to whom the king holds out the golden scepter so that he may live.â And she knew the threat that lay before her: âBut as for me, I have not been called to come in to the king these thirty daysâ (Esther 4:11). Yet in the end, in faith and courage, she resolved, âI will go to the king, though it is against the law, and if I perish, I perishâ (Esther 4:16). One does not simply saunter into the presence of a great king âwithout being called.â And all the more with God Almighty. Not simply because itâs a great risk, as with an earthly king, but with God itâs not even physically possible. He is no man on earth, that one might slip past the palace guards and approach him. He is utterly unapproachable â âwithout being called.â Yet in Christ, the throne of heaven has taken the initiative, and now holds out the golden scepter. Why We Can Come Near The two great bookends (4:14â16; 10:19â25) of the heart of the epistle to the Hebrews (chapters 5â10) make clear why we can draw near and how. Hebrews is set against the backdrop of Godâs first covenant with his people, through Moses. What Exodus, Leviticus, and Numbers say about âdrawing nearâ or âcoming nearâ to God is sobering. For one, the tabernacle, and the whole system of worship given at Mount Sinai, taught the people of their distance from God, with barriers between them, because of their sin. The people must stay back, lest Godâs righteous anger break out against their sin (Exodus 19:22, 24). First, Moses alone is permitted to come near (Exodus 24:2), and then Mosesâs brother, Aaron, and his sons, serving as priests, may âcome nearâ (Exodus 28:43; 30:20). No outsider may come near (Numbers 1:51; 3:10), nor any priest with a blemish (Leviticus 21:18, 21). Only the ordained priests may âdraw near to the altarâ to make atonement for themselves and for the people (Leviticus 9:7) â and only in the way God has instructed, as memorably taught in the horrors of Nadab and Abihu (Leviticus 10) and Korahâs rebellion (Numbers 16; also 17:13; 18:3â4, 7, 22). âIt is almost too good to be true â almost â that we have access to God.â But now, in Christ, âwe have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of Godâ (Hebrews 4:14). In him, âwe have a great priest over the house of God,â a priest who is ours by faith, and so we âenter the holy places by the blood of Jesus, by the new and living way that he opened for us through the curtain, that is, through his fleshâ (Hebrews 10:19â21). Not only does Christ enter Godâs presence on our behalf, but he welcomes us in his wake. He is our pioneer, who blazes our trail. We now may âdraw nearâ to God, âcome nearâ to heavenâs throne of grace, because of Christâs achievements for us, in his life and death and resurrection. How We Can Come Near Then, to add wonder to wonder, we not only draw near to God himself in Christ, but we are invited, indeed expected, to do so with confidence â with boldness and full assurance. Since we have such a high priest as Christ, âlet us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of needâ (Hebrews 4:16). In him, âwe have confidence to enter the holy places by the blood of Jesusâ (Hebrews 10:19). Not by our own value, status, or achievements, but his. We âdraw near with a true heart in full assurance of faithâ (Hebrews 10:22), a faith looking outside ourselves to ask not âAm I worthy?â to approach Godâs throne, but âIs Jesus worthy?â Wait No Longer It is almost too good to be true â almost â that we have access to God (Ephesians 2:18) and âaccess with confidenceâ at that (Ephesians 3:12). In Christ, the King of the universe holds out the golden scepter. The question is no longer whether we can come, but will we, and how often? We have access. God expects us to take hold on his Son by faith, and approach his throne with confidence. Our God listens. He hears our prayers. What are you waiting for? Article by David Mathis