Jackie Hill Perry
Jackie Hill Perry has a way with words, and people canāt stop listening. A gifted poet, rapper, writer, and teacher, she has written books and Bible studies, released hip-hop albums, and taught at events, conferences, colleges, and coliseums all over the nation. Inspired by her powerful testimony of salvation and deliverance from a gay lifestyle and her teaching on the holiness of God, the word is out: God is good, He is Lord, and those who surrender to Him are made new.
The Power of God
Itās a message Jackie is passionate about because she knows firsthand the transformational power of Jesus Christ. She and her husband ā fellow spoken-word artist, Preston Perry ā met in 2009 while performing at an artistās showcase. Impressed with Jackieās poetry, Preston struck up a friendship that deepened over the years. Eventually, they began dating, which presented significant challenges but also great rewards. The Lord used Preston as a source of healing, and marriage forced Jackie to deal with hurts and fears sheād been reluctant to give to God. The couple, who reside in Atlanta, married in 2014. They are now the parents of three daughters: Eden, Autumn, and Sage; and are expecting a son.
A decade ago, Jackie could never have imagined marriage, motherhood, and ministry in her future. Violated and abandoned by men who should have loved and protected her, Jackie was hurting. Fear and distrust kept watch over her heart. Surrender wasnāt an option, even when a loving God promised her new life. Despite some exposure to church and to Scripture, Jackie was adamant that she would never submit to Jesus as Lord.
Her attraction to women started in early childhood and intensified during adolescence. Jackie finally gave in to same-sex desires, along with drugs and other habits that brought comfort, pleasure, and an emotional escape. Suppressing her femininity by wearing menās clothing and assuming the male role in dating relationships, Jackie says every area of her life was characterized by sin and rebellion against God.
Then one evening, 19-year-old Jackie felt the conviction of the Holy Spirit. Recalling the experience, she says, āIt was a God thing. No one can ever tell me that I saved myself. I had some understanding of Jesus and obedience and Christianity. But I sincerely wanted nothing to do with God on His terms.ā
Even as she resisted, Jackie clearly sensed the Lord speaking to her. āWhen He showed me that all of my sin would be the death of me ā that it was true that the wages of sin is death, but it was equally true that God offered eternal life if I would repent and believe ā I was compelled to trust Him. For the first time in my life, I knew that God was real and He was worth it. Just the day before, my heart was hard as a rock, and now I wanted Jesus. Only the Holy Spirit could have done that.ā
āFor the first time in my life, I knew that God was real and He was worth it. Just the day before, my heart was hard as a rock, and now I wanted Jesus. Only the Holy Spirit could have done that.ā
The Power of Words
Jackie dove into Godās Word and began discovering the woman He designed her to be ā mind, body, and spirit. Seeking to express herself in deeper, more artistic ways, she began writing poetry. Jackie didnāt shy away from revealing her past or the ongoing struggle with temptation and sin. Her poems unflinchingly spoke gospel truth and glorified God as the ultimate source of love and life. After connecting with the Passion for Christ Movement (P4CM), Jackie was asked to write a poem about being an ex-lesbian. Hesitant at first, she felt the Lord prompting her to move forward. Through its confessional lyrics and rock-solid theology, My Life as a Stud shined a spotlight on Jackieās conversion and marked the beginning of her public ministry.
āWhen My Life As a Stud came out in 2009, so many gay and lesbian people who didnāt go to church, didnāt trust Christians, and didnāt want to have anything to do with the Bible clicked on the poem and suddenly wanted Jesus. I realized God had given me this art form where Iām able to speak to peopleās hearts.ā
Since then, she has taken the message of Godās love to artist showcases, faith-based conferences, college campuses, and major media outlets. The foundation of her message is always the Word of God: In His goodness, God created male and female. As the perfect designer of gender and sexuality, God is worthy of trust and obedience. Although same-sex attraction is central to her testimony, Jackie emphasizes that the church should approach the LGBTQ community the same way it approaches other people. Everyone is created to be an image-bearer of the living God with a unique identity and great worth. Rather than labeling someone as āa gay friend,ā itās important to develop genuine, one-on-one relationships the same way Jesus did. By investing in authentic friendships, Christians will be able to share the gospel because theyāre actually modeling it.
The Power of Redemption
Jackie points out that being ādead in sinā goes far beyond someoneās sexual preference. Without Christ, people are lost in every way. But when Jesus gives new life, He forgives and redeems the whole person. She says, āGod saved me from sin, not just my sexuality. I was an all-around sinful person. In essence, sin was my lord. As much as I loved women in a lustful way, I also loved pornography and drugs, bitterness and unforgiveness.ā
Through discipleship, Jackie recognized the holistic nature of Godās redemption. āIāve learned that pride is one of my greatest struggles, even more so than same-sex attraction,ā she explains. āPride manifests itself in so many areas of my life, itās hard to keep up. God didnāt just rescue me from being gay. He saved me from believing Iām a better lord than He is.ā In response to the growing debate over same-sex attraction and the frequent questions she receives when people hear her testimony, Jackie wrote her first book, Gay Girl, Good God, to serve three core groups: people seeking to help and understand those within the LGBTQ community; people within the community who may disagree with some of her conclusions but are still intrigued; and people who are believers, yet have same-sex attraction and are trying to figure out how to love Jesus while dealing with those feelings.
When asked what she hopes the church learns from the book, she says, āI want people to see that how you reach the LGBTQ community is the same way you reach anybody ā with the gospel. The gospel is about God. The method shouldnāt be any different when youāre speaking to someone who is dealing with gluttony or lying or lust. Itās all the same. God is Lord, Heās Master, Heās King, Heās able to save. And the problem with sin is always a problem between us and God.ā
"God is Lord, Heās Master, Heās King, Heās able to save. And the problem with sin is always a problem between us and God."
The Power of Community
Jackie hopes the church will develop greater empathy for same-sex individuals and recognize how difficult it is to walk away from the gay lifestyle. She says, āItās not a random sin that is easily put off. The feelings are real, and it takes time and work and a long process of dying to self.ā Without a supportive church family to encourage and affirm her, the author might have fallen away. The first couple of years as a Christian were the hardest. Jackie had to learn to put off the old nature and put on Christ. The process required spiritual and physical discipline. She had to shop for womenās clothing, an experience that made her feel strange, vulnerable, and afraid.
Temptation was a constant source of condemnation, at times pushing Jackie into depression and doubt as she grieved over her sinful nature. After a decade of growing in Christ, Jackie still faces temptations but says theyāre more subtle and easier to flee. Instead of looking at women as objects of lust, she chooses to see them as image-bearers of God. In evaluating her walk with the Lord, she considers whether she is loving people well, growing in holiness, and bearing good fruit. And she looks to Jesus, who endured the horror of the cross because He loved God with all of His heart. Knowing Jesus didnāt want the cup of suffering, yet accepted it with humility, helps Jackie run the Christian race with endurance.
Endurance and spiritual growth became the inspiration for Jackieās second album, Crescendo, which was hailed as āstunning,ā āflawless,ā and arguably āthe best hip-hop album of the year.ā Although she began experimenting with rap simply for creative expression, Jackie soon saw it as another platform to share the gospel. When asked about the albumās title, the talented artist says, āIn music theory, ācrescendoā means the increase in sound. So I wanted to apply that to faith. When youāre in Christ, as your faith increases, your fruit should get louder. You love more, youāre more generous, more attentive to the needs of people. You listen well. Things begin to change as your faith becomes more evident.ā
She wrote the album to mimic that spiritual progression. The first track begins on a low note with āLamentations,ā a rap about the reality of sin and the tendency for Jackie to forget sheās been forgiven. Taking listeners through an honest exploration of spiritual growth, Crescendo ends on a high note, celebrating how the Lord saved Jackie through His gospel, initiated her Christian walk, and sustains her to this day.
The Power of Legacy
A gifted communicator and lyricist, Jackie isnāt just impacting culture with wordcraft. Sheās also building a spiritual legacy for her children. Because of her childhood trauma, the idea of raising daughters was terrifying. But sheās found so much joy in becoming a mom. Jackie says, āWhen I think of parenthood, I know Iām only called to steward these children and disciple them and hope they will love the Lord with all their hearts, souls, minds, and strength. When I was carrying Eden, Titus 2 really spoke to me about the older women teaching the younger women.
"Once I realized what a privilege it would be to raise up a woman in my home, I welcomed the challenge.ā As Jackie reflects on the last decade, she gives God all the glory and praise. Without Christ, she wouldnāt have her precious daughters, would have missed out on beautiful friendships, and would never have experienced being loved by a man for the first time in her life. āIf God hadnāt rescued me, none of this would be possible,ā Jackie says. āLife still has its challenges, for sure. But itās better. Itās so much better.ā
This article courtesy of HomeLife magazine.
Kindness in a World Gone Mad
I was waiting in line with my sons for a roller coaster when the T-shirt caught my eye:Ā Kindness is free ā so sprinkle that stuff everywhere . Iām sympathetic to the message at one level. To many, the world feels meaner in recent years, and perhaps especially so since the last election cycle, COVID-19, and civil unrest. Yes, genuine human kindness, in the most basic of senses, has often been sorely lacking. More kindness would indeed be nice, and perhaps shine in new ways in times when weāre coming to expect meanness and outrage everywhere. But as admirable as the instincts behind the message are, the initial claim is badly mistaken. No, real kindness ā the kind we really long for and need ā is not free. And perhaps it would help us all to come to terms with that up front. Real kindness is costly. This Harsh World Deep down, we know that we live in a mean world ā too mean to keep the meanness constantly at the forefront of our minds. Yet at times ā more frequent for some than others ā the meanness, the evil afoot in this world, accosts us. Even as bright as some days appear, there is a āpresent darknessā ( Ephesians 6:12 ), still under the sway of āthe god of this worldā ( 2 Corinthians 4:4 ). Pretender though he is, and numbered his days, his ādomain of darknessā ( Colossians 1:13 ) is real, and āthe power of darknessā ( Luke 22:53 ) treacherous. And not only has the worldĀ out there Ā gone mad, but far too often the sway of the world, and the indwelling sin in us all, brings that meannessĀ in here , into the people who profess to be Christās. Tragically, the very people who are to make Jesus known by their love for each other ( John 13:35 ) can be harsh, quarrelsome, impatient, shrill, nasty. Itās only human to respond in kind. But Christ requires of his church what is more than human:Ā respond in kindness . Virtue in a Vacuum? In part, internal conflict in the Ephesian church prompted Paulās second letter to Timothy. At the letterās heart, the aging apostle gives his protĆ©gĆ© this arresting charge: The Lordās servant must not be quarrelsome butĀ kind to everyone , able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness. God may perhaps grant them repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth, and they may come to their senses and escape from the snare of the devil, after being captured by him to do his will. ( 2 Timothy 2:24ā26 ) Christians have long celebrated kindness as one of theĀ heavenly virtues . Yet we live in a day that often makes very little of kindness. We assume itās free. We celebrate ārandom acts of kindness.ā We think of kindnessĀ without context . Of course, in our mean world, it is pleasant to be surprised by a strangerās kindness, free and random as it may seem. Sure, sprinkle that stuff everywhere. But the Christian vision of kindness is far deeper, more significant, and contextualized. āKindness is not random or free, but a costly, counter-intuitive response to meanness, rather than responding in kind.ā Christian kindness is no common courtesy or virtue in a vacuum, but a surprising response to mistreatment and hurt. It is not random or free, but a costly, counterintuitive response to meanness, to outrage, rather than responding in kind. As Don Carson comments onĀ 1 Corinthians 13:4 , āLove is kind ā not merely patient or long-suffering in the face of injury, but quick to pay back with kindness what it received in hurtā ( Showing the Spirit , 79). Companions of Kindness One way to see that Christian kindness is not random is to observe the kind of company it keeps, especially in the letters of Paul ā who would be āthe apostle of kindness,ā if there were one. No one sprinkles costly kindness like Paul. Among other graces, kindness often appears hand in hand with patience and compassion. Patience appears side by side with kindness, and in the same order, inĀ 2 Corinthians 6:6 Ā andĀ Galatians 5:22 : āpatience, kindness.ā So also, Paul presses them together inĀ Romans 2:4 , in speaking of divine patience and kindness: āDo you presume on the riches of his kindness and forbearance and patience, not knowing that Godās kindness is meant to lead you to repentance?ā So too, as weāve seen, Christian pastors ā āthe Lordās servantā in the midst of conflict ā āmust not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, . . . patiently enduring evilā ( 2 Timothy 2:24 ).Ā Kind to everyone Ā ā isnāt that surprising? The opponents here are false teachers. They must not be coddled or encouraged. Rather, they must be exposed and corrected ā and yet that is no license to treat them harshly or with meanness. Opponents can be patiently endured and gently corrected. In fact, it would not beĀ kind Ā to a false teacher, or the church, to let him continue in error. Exposing his error and gently correcting him is kindness. As for compassion,Ā Ephesians 4:32 Ā memorably explains the command to ābe kind to one anotherā with the word ātenderheartedā (or ācompassionate,ā GreekĀ eusplanchnos ). Kindness is an expression of a tender, compassionate heart.Ā Colossians 3:12 Ā puts all three together, with humility and meekness: āPut on then, as Godās chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience.ā Kindness, we might say, is a kind of secondary virtue. Compassion and patience, in various ways, make kindness possible. A compassionate heart leads to kindness, and external actions that give expression to that kindness. So also, patience makes internal kindness and its external acts possible. Patience gives emotional and practical space for kindness to ripen and move outward in physical acts. True kindness and its expressions (which are not random or free) complete and extend its companion virtues. The fruit of kindness needs the roots of patience and compassion, and they need kindness. Costly Kind Our young kids are still honest enough with themselves, and us, to admit to how costly kindness can be. When a sibling is mean, or someone on the playground, their natural response (and ours) is not to be kind, but to respond in kind. Which is why we consider kindnessĀ a Christian virtue Ā ā which doesnāt just happen spontaneously without practice and the enabling of the Holy Spirit. Kindness, Paul says, is the produce of the Spirit ( Galatians 5:22ā23 ;Ā 2 Corinthians 6:6 ), not of the natural human heart. Real kindness requires intervention from the outside, both from Godās Spirit and also his divine Son stepping into our mean world, showing us a different way, and doing it, climactically, to our eternal salvation and joy. As my wife and IĀ have learned Ā in almost fifteen years of marriage, kindness toward each other begins with Godās kindness toward us in Christ. Only then can we really find the resources to overcome evil with good, triumph over annoyance with patience, and rise above meanness with kindness. In other words, the heart of how we become kinder ā not with free, random, imitation kindness, but with thick, genuine, Christian kindness ā is knowing and enjoying the kindness of God toward us, and doing so specifically by feeding on, and taking our cues from, the very words of God. Behold His Kindness Our world, in its rebellion and cosmic treason, is no meaner than in its meanness to God himself ā God who is holy and just. And yet what shocking kindness he displays, even toward the unbelieving. Our heavenly Father āis kind to the ungrateful and the evilā ( Luke 6:35 ). Even those who live the hardest, meanest of lives are surrounded by rays of GodāsĀ common kindness , as we might call it: beautiful days, human minds and bodies and words, friends and family, food and shelter, the everyday divine kindnesses we take for granted until theyāre gone. āEven those who live the hardest, meanest of lives are surrounded by rays of Godās common kindness.ā As Paul preached at Lystra, even āin past generations,ā before Christ, when God āallowed all the nations to walk in their own ways,ā he showed the unbelieving his common kindness, and ādid not leave himself without witness, for he did good by giving you rains from heaven and fruitful seasons, satisfying your hearts with food and gladnessā ( Acts 14:16ā17 ). Such kindness even in our day, gratuitous as it may seem to us, is not wasted. It is not random but has purpose: āmeant to lead you to repentanceā ( Romans 2:4 ). Yet in the fullness of time, āthe goodness and loving kindness of God our Savior appearedā ( Titus 3:4 ), bringing salvation ā GodāsĀ special kindness Ā ā through faith in Christ. Such divine kindness not only brought eternal rescue for Godās long-chosen people, but it engrafts even strangers into Godās ancient tree of blessing through faith ( Romans 11:22 ). Jesus is Kindness incarnate, whose yoke is not severe, but (literally)Ā kind Ā ( Matthew 11:30 ). He is the Lord whom we, with new Spirit-given palates,Ā taste as kind Ā ( 1 Peter 2:3 ). Kindness Coming As Christ, by his Spirit, shows kindness to us, in his word and in our lives, he also forms us into instruments of his kindness to others. āGod in Christ forgave you,ā Paul says inĀ Ephesians 4:32 . Therefore, āBe kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another.ā Ultimately, it is the kindness of God that melts an unforgiving spirit, softens a hard heart, and transforms unkind actions. In Christ, we become the kind of people whoĀ see others , andĀ have compassion Ā for them, andĀ exercise patience Ā toward them, andĀ show kindness Ā to them, knowing not only that we ourselves have been shown kindness but that āin the coming ages [God himself will] show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesusā ( Ephesians 2:7 ). We have only begun to taste the kindness of our God.