About the Book
"Leaving" by Karen Kingsbury follows Bailey Flanigan as she navigates her career in Hollywood after leaving her hometown of Bloomington. Torn between two different lives, Bailey must confront her past, relationships, and faith as she determines where her heart truly lies. This novel explores themes of love, forgiveness, and redemption as Bailey learns to trust in God's plan for her future.
John Newton
âAmazing Graceâ is one of the most beloved hymns of the last two centuries. The soaring spiritual describing profound religious elation is estimated to be performed 10 million times annually and has appeared on over 11,000 albums. It was referenced in Harriet Beecher Stoweâs anti-slavery novel Uncle Tomâs Cabin and had a surge of popularity during two of nationâs greatest crises: the Civil War and the Vietnam War.
Between 1970 and 1972, Judy Collinsâ recording spent 67 weeks on the chart and peaked at number 5. Aretha Franklin, Ray Charles, Johnny Cash, Willie Nelson and Elvis are among the many artists to record the song. Recently, President Obama burst into the familiar tune during the memorial service for Reverend Clementa Pinckney, a victim of a heinous church shooting in Charleston, South Carolina.
The song was written by a former enslaver
Ironically, this stirring song, closely associated with the African American community, was written by a former enslaver, John Newton. This unlikely authorship forms the basis of Amazing Grace, a Broadway musical (written by Broadway first-timer Christopher Smith, a former Philadelphia policeman, and playwright Arthur Giron) which tells Newtonâs life story from his early days as a licentious libertine in the British navy to his religious conversion and taking up the abolitionist cause. But the real story behind the somewhat sentimental musical told in Newtonâs autobiography reveals a more complex and ambiguous history.
Newton was born in 1725 in London to a Puritan mother who died two weeks before his seventh birthday, and a stern sea-captain father who took him to sea at age 11. After many voyages and a reckless youth of drinking, Newton was impressed into the British navy. After attempting to desert, he received eight dozen lashes and was reduced to the rank of common seaman.
While later serving on the Pegasus, an enslaved person ship, Newton did not get along with the crew who left him in West Africa with Amos Clowe, an enslaver. Clowe gave Newton to his wife Princess Peye, an African royal who treated him vilely as she did her other enslaved people. On stage, Newtonâs African adventures and enslavement are a bit more flashy with the ship going down, a thrilling underwater rescue of Newton by his loyal retainer Thomas, and an implied love affair between Newton and the Princess.
Newton converted to Christianity after a miracle at sea
The stage version has Johnâs father leading a rescue party to save his son from the calculating Princess, but in actuality, the enterprise was undertaken by a sea captain asked by the senior Newton to look for the missing John. (In the show, the elder Newton is wounded during the battle for his sonâs freedom and later has a tearful deathbed scene with John on board ship.)
During the voyage home, the ship was caught in a horrendous storm off the coast of Ireland and almost sank. Newton prayed to God and the cargo miraculously shifted to fill a hole in the shipâs hull and the vessel drifted to safety. Newton took this as a sign from the Almighty and marked it as his conversion to Christianity. He did not radically change his ways at once, his total reformation was more gradual. "I cannot consider myself to have been a believer in the full sense of the word, until a considerable time afterward,â he later wrote. He did begin reading the Bible at this point and began to view his captives with a more sympathetic view.
In the musical, John abjures slavery immediately after his shipboard epiphany and sails to Barbados to search for and buy the freedom of Thomas. After returning to England, Newton and his sweetheart Mary Catlett dramatically confront the Prince of Wales and urge him to abolish the cruel practice. In real life, Newton continued to sell his fellow human beings, making three voyages as the captain of two different vessels, The Duke of Argyle and the African. He suffered a stroke in 1754 and retired, but continued to invest in the business. In 1764, he was ordained as an Anglican priest and wrote 280 hymns to accompany his services. He wrote the words for âAmazing Graceâ in 1772 (In 1835, William Walker put the words to the popular tune âNew Britainâ)
It was not until 1788, 34 years after leaving it that he renounced his former slaving profession by publishing a blazing pamphlet called âThoughts Upon the Slave Trade.â The tract described the horrific conditions on the ships and Newton apologized for making a public statement so many years after participating in the trade: âIt will always be a subject of humiliating reflection to me, that I was once an active instrument in a business at which my heart now shudders.â The pamphlet was so popular it was reprinted several times and sent to every member of Parliament. Under the leadership of MP William Wilberforce, the English civil government outlawed slavery in Great Britain in 1807 and Newton lived to see it, dying in December of that year. The passage of the Slave Trade Act is depicted in the 2006 film, also called Amazing Grace, starring Albert Finney as Newton and Ioan Gruffud as Wilberforce.
âobedience will make you miserableâ - the tired lie satan loves to tell
There are at least two ways to please the devil when it comes to the pursuit of holiness. The first way, of course, is to run from holiness altogether â to flee, with the prodigal, to the far country of this world, away from the Fatherâs home (Luke 15:11â13). The second way, perhaps even more dangerous than the first, is to pursue holiness (or what we imagine holiness to be), and yet not be happy about it. We may call this second way older-brother Christianity. Like the elder son in Jesusâs parable, such people follow the Fatherâs rules with a sigh (Luke 15:29). Their holiness is all pursed lips and sober glances. âSuch is the cost of righteousness,â they remind themselves. âWe must relinquish pleasure on the path to heaven, you know. Holiness, not happiness, is the true good.â âWhat virtue!â some may exclaim. âWhat uprightness! What self-denial!â What a sham.  Older brothers, for all their outward purity, are still in the grip of the serpentâs ancient lie. They have been deceived, along with our first parents, to live in a world of the devilâs own making: a world where our Father wears a frown, where heaven has no laughter, and where holiness is ultimately a sacrifice. As long as we live in such a world, we will miss the feast that our Father has prepared (Luke 15:22â28). If we want to rid ourselves of older-brother instincts, and pursue holiness in a way that shames the devil, we would do well to return to the garden and listen again to that first lie. Song of the Morning Stars When the serpent approached Adam and Eve in the garden, he knew that only a lie could put the forbidden fruit into their hands. Only a lie could somehow convince them that they were the slaves of a stingy God. Only a lie could do the trick because reality, as always, was not on Satanâs side. For when God first breathed the oceans into being, and lit the stars like candles, and filled mountain fields with wildflowers, no sigh could be heard in all heaven and earth. Rather, all creation joined to praise their glorious Maker. From heavenâs lofty balconies, the morning stars raised their song, the sons of God shouted for joy, and Wisdom delighted in Godâs handiwork (Job 38:7; Proverbs 8:30â31). From âLet there be lightâ onward, the heavens have declared his glory (Psalm 19:1). And how shall we hear their declaration? As an apathetic exhale? As a monotonous lecture? As a distracted recitation? No, as the very pitch of delight: âYou make the going out of the morning and the evening to shout for joyâ (Psalm 65:8). Adam and Eve, upon hearing the melody of creation, could not help but join the song. As they gazed across Godâs handiwork, they trusted the goodness of their Father. They admired the beauty of their Creator. They enjoyed the fellowship of their Friend. They obeyed the counsel of their King. They had no higher happiness. Life in the Serpentâs World No, the devil knew Adam and Eve would never eat the fruit as long as they worshiped the glorious God in his marvelous world. So what did he do? He invited the couple to imagine a different world and a different god. He shuttered their eyes to sunsets and tulips, blocked their ears to the chirping of the robins, and calloused their skin to spring breezes. In short, he shrunk creation to the size of an apple, and gave them eyes for Edenâs only âNo.â In the world of the serpent, the morning stars sing a dirge, the hosts of heaven murmur, and creation only groans beneath the dictatorship of the Almighty Ruler. In such a world, Adam and Eve had only two options. They could, like the prodigal, disobey their God and run from their Fatherâs garden. Or they could, like the older brother, sacrifice their pleasure on the noble altar of obedience. âEither rebel and be happy â or obey and be miserable.â This was the serpentâs offer (Genesis 3:4â5). Adam and Eve took the fruit and fled into the far country. Many today do the same. Many others, however, refuse the fruit â but only on the serpentâs terms. Like older brothers, we aim to keep our Fatherâs rules. We do so, however, not because his rules are satisfying, but only because theyâre right; not because holiness is glorious, but only because itâs obedient; not because fellowship with God is happifying (as Jonathan Edwards used to say), but just because he says so. Which brother we become matters little to the devil. As long as we live within his world â a world where the gifts are scarce and the God is stingy â he is happy whether we rebel or âobey.â As long as we cease to hear and sing creationâs song of praise, the serpent is pleased. Deeper Than Self-Denial If humanityâs first sin arose when we believed the serpentâs lie, then our repentance must go deeper than rule-keeping or self-denial. After all, some of this worldâs most marvelous rule-keepers are still tenants in the serpentâs world. No, our repentance requires more: we must break free from his spell altogether, and return to the real God in the real world. We must bend our ears upward once again to hear the heavens sing, âGlory!â We must feel again that heaven and earth, though fallen now, still pulse with Godâs pleasure (Psalm 104:31). We must wade again in this delicious stream called creation, remembering that God himself is the fountain (James 1:17). In other words, we must step past the ancient lie and believe once again that God created us to be happy in him. As soon as we âtaste and see that the Lord is goodâ (Psalm 34:8), and that he himself is our âexceeding joyâ (Psalm 43:4), everything about our pursuit of holiness will change. We will still deny ourselves, practice obedience, and kill our sin, to be sure. But we will not dare for a moment to think that we are exchanging happiness for holiness. We will trade away our sin because we have seen the treasure to be found (Matthew 13:44). We will forsake the lusts of our flesh because, as Jesus promised, âwhoever loses his life for my sake will find itâ (Matthew 16:25). And even when we must sacrifice something precious to follow Christ, we trust that we will âreceive a hundredfold now in this time . . . and in the age to come, eternal lifeâ (Mark 10:30). The Holy Spirit teaches us not only to obey God, but to enjoy him â indeed, to obey him by  enjoying him. He teaches us not only to withstand the devilâs temptations, but as Martin Luther put it, to laugh our adversary to scorn. He teaches us not only to wonder at the mercy of Christ, but to breathe a grand sigh of relief, amazed that joy has been so near at hand all this time. Discipline does not defeat the devil â happiness does. Join the Fatherâs Feast From where we stand now, of course, we can look to more than creation to see the happiness of God, and to nurture our happiness in him. We now have seen wonders that the morning stars could never have imagined. We have seen a God so happy that he could bear up under a world of sorrows without breaking (Isaiah 53:3). A God who recognized the joy set before him so luminously that he could endure the darkest shame (Hebrews 12:2). A God who runs to meet his prodigal children, too delighted to be dignified (Luke 15:20). A God who even now holds out his own joy to every older brother who will come in from the cold and join the celebration (Luke 15:31â32). Come now, older brother, put up your ear to the door. Can you hear the saintsâ laughter? Can you hear the angelsâ praise? Can you hear the Father singing over his children whoâve returned? Whatever we must forsake to walk inside this door, there is always more ahead of us than what we leave behind. So go ahead: Turn again to that serpent in the darkness, and laugh his bruised head to scorn. And then open up the door, and join your Fatherâs feast.